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A Holiday Just for Me

I did it. I survived the holidays. And I don’t have to listen to Christmas music for 10 more months! Hooray!

As I’m sure you’ve already suspected, I’m not usually big on the holidays. Except for Halloween. Halloween is the most joyous of all occasions. Those other holidays though? No thanks. Due to the societal expectations, financial burden, family obligations, etc., I find most major holidays to be not only disappointing, but incredibly stressful. Can’t afford to fly all over the country to visit family/friends for Christmas? There’s a guilt trip for that. Can’t spend a fortune on presents? There’s a guilt trip for that. Aren’t feeling quite as merry as you should during “the most wonderful time of the year?” You’re doing it wrong, obviously. You’d rather work than use up your PTO? You’re a terrible person….And so on and so on.

I hate the pressure that comes with the holidays. Pressure that society and family slaps on us, making you feel like no matter what you do, it’s not enough. Last year, when I was still in therapy, I expressed similar sentiments to my therapist. And you know what she told me? She told me that I didn’t have to do anything I didn’t want to do. And holy moley, she was right.

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Despite the expectations laid on us during the holidays, none of us are under any obligation to fulfill them. There is never any reason to feel guilty for doing what’s best for you.

That being said, I had a lovely Christmas this year. This was probably the first I’ve had in a long time that I didn’t feel depressed. I enjoyed the time spent with Boyfriend and his daughter. Even more so, I enjoyed the time we spent by ourselves on Christmas Eve. I cooked dinner for us and we just hung out, doing what we wanted to do. He played video games, while I watched Doctor Who (a tradition of mine) and snuggled with Merlin. Christmas morning I got up and slaved over this beauty:

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I made my first ever Buche de Noel (or Yule log), including some tiny little meringue mushrooms. Did I have to do it? No. Did I want to? Hell yes. I don’t think I’ve ever been more proud or excited about a dessert I’ve made before. And I didn’t do it for anyone else, I did it just for me. It was totally worth it.

This post is a little late, but the holidays aren’t totally over yet. Don’t forget to make some of it about you.

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8 thoughts on “A Holiday Just for Me

  1. Love this! I totally agree with the pressures of the holidays. Just one of the reasons I avoid every part of it I can. Great pic of you & Merlin. And great pic of the Buche de Noel. I tried to make one once… Nowhere near as nice as yours. Hence, I stay at the grill.

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  2. Ahoy there matey! Congrats on yer survival. I knew ye could do it! I survived too. I didn’t go anywhere for the holidays and stayed in me bunk doing whatever hit me mood. I did talk to the family on the phone and was told that I missed the fighting, crying, and yelling. Hooray! Next year the goal is to not do a gift exchange. The long term goal is to not celebrate xmas ever again. Cause I am a grownup dang it. I don’t have to do what I don’t wanna do. Except work. Cause I need the loot. Or to win a lottery. Though the First Mate did make me fresh scones and hot chocolate on the 25th. Spending time with just him was lovely. Hope the end of this year and the entire New Year goes just the way ye want. Lots of changes are in store for mine. I have to try and get ready. Arrrr!
    x The Captain

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    1. That sounds like a nice time. Definitely better than fighting with your family, lol. I’d be totally fine with a “no presents” Christmas. Nobody really wants/needs anything anyway. It feels like more of an obligation than anything. Blergh. I hope your New Year goes well! xx

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  3. I’m so glad Christmas is over too! My frustration stems from different things than yours, but it’s nice to know I’m not alone. I feel obligated to enjoy Christmas and spend it with my parents because my mom loves family time and hates when we don’t get together. So I endure. Also I love giving gifts but rarely do the people I give gifts to put much thought into gifts they give me (except my mom!) Makes me want to not shop at all next year! On a happier note, I love your Yule log!!😁

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